My dad found a good paying job in Arizona and they all want me to go but I don't want to because I know how my family is and they will eventually treat me the same.
I lately watch Kyde and Eric on YouTube and honestly it's the only reason I haven't killed myself. They travel and make viewers or at least me part of that experience. Makes me sort of happy.
I can't wait for the next video.
I was borderline going to kill myself but now it makes me wonder what if I just leave the states? I mean this life sucks but maybe people from another country would maybe take interest in me and want to be my friend. I just want fun cool friends with similar tastes as me in something. As of yet I have realized gamers mainly don't listen to music while people who like music a lot aren't really gamers kinda sucks. Anime is my only friend for now, I cry myself thinking someday I'll have a cool friend with the same tastes and I will cherish him or her forever. ^-^
